Bedrest Week #4

Yay!  I've made it through my 4th week of bedrest!!  Luckily I had lots of good news last week and definitely boosted my spirits and made this last week go by so much faster.  It was also nice having Shawn and Em home this last weekend (compared to me being home by myself the weekend before). 

As the weeks go by and Evan's arrival gets closer, I'm starting to really miss getting to do the things that all mom's want to do.  . .just prepare for their little one's arrival.  Doing some of the most simple things like being able to put his clothes away or just organize his room are some of the things I'm missing the most.

I'm also starting to think alot about Em as these weeks go by.  These are our last few weeks/months of her being an only child and I'm really sad that this is how they are going.  I had pictured doing lots of fun/ special things with her during these last few months before Evan arrived and now I don't get to do that.  I know Shawn is doing fun stuff with her, but I wanted to be able to partake too.  I just hate that this is how I have to remember her last weeks as an only child. 

Sometimes, I look at her and wonder too. . .how could I ever possibly love another child as much as I love her.   She's been my whole life for the last 2.5 years and her whole little world is about to be rocked.  I know giving her a sibling is possibly one of the best gifts we could ever give her, but I also know it will be hard for her to understand that for a while.  She's not used to having to share time with anyone.  So while I'm most definitely looking forward to Evan's arrival, I can't help but wonder how him coming is going to change the whole dynamic of things. I never want Em to feel like she comes second to Evan and I never want Evan to feel like he comes second to Em.  It's going to be a juggling act that I guess we will learn as we go.

So that's enough thinking and reflecting for this week.  Here's to another week down of bedrest!  YAY!!