Bed Rest Week #1

Wow, so I'm not sure I even know where to start when it comes to how the last week has been. I feel like my whole life has changed and I'm just having to learn what my new sense of normal is. While bedrest is physically easy, it is more mentally challenging than I ever imagined! I know it's temporary and that's what gets me through each day, but it still doesn't mean I don't have my ups and downs.

Shawn has been awesome since the beginning. He has picked up the slack on everything I can no longer do. He's changed his work schedule so he can go in later because now he has to get Em up, ready and off to school. That's something I used to take care of. In addition to doing everything when it comes to taking care of Em, he's doing everything needed to keep the household running and on top of that trying to get us ready for Evan's arrival. It makes me feel guilty that he has to do so much more because now I can't. He's had a great attitude about it though which keeps me more positive. And he makes sure to ask me each day what he can do to make things better/ easier for me.

My dr told me I'm allowed to be up an hour in the morning, afternoon and night. The rest of the time I need to be laying down or sitting down. So that leaves about 20-22 hours a day that I'm supposed to be off my feet. While, I much prefer to be on bedrest at home instead of the hospital, it's still tough knowing everyone around me can go on with their normal life and I just have to sit around. Keeping this baby in my tummy as long as possible is my goal, but sometimes I just want to know much longer I have to do this... 5 weeks, 10 weeks ??

I've had several people ask how Em is doing though this. So far, so good. We're trying to keep her in her normal routine as much as possible so it has as little impact on her as possible. I really think it's tougher on me than her. The other night I was laying on the couch and Em asked me to get on the floor to play with her and I had to tell her I couldn't. Of course, Shawn was right there to play with her, but it didn't make me feel much better about it. This weekend, Em had a birthday party to go to and while that's something I would normally go to with her, instead it was just Shawn and her while I stayed at home. It's hard thinking about the things I will miss seeing her do over the next several weeks because I have to be on bedrest.

Thankfully, we have lots of family and friends that have offered to help and are rooting for Evan to stay in my belly so he comes out healthy.  Knowing how many people we have cheering us on helps make things so much easier!

If you look over at my ticker, you'll notice I've got 99 days to go til my due date. A week ago, I was thinking how fast this pregnancy had been going. Now all I can think about is how long 99 days sounds!! No one knows for sure when Evan will make his arrival, but even if it means bedrest for weeks, I'm hoping it's still many, many days away. Each week that passes seems like another goal that has been reached. So while I know this is just a minor bump in the road, I'm still expecting the next several weeks /months to tough.

I go to the dr weekly now, so my only hope is that I can make it through each appt without being sent to the hospital. My next appt is Friday morning for an NST.